Emotions that transcend all that we've known of ourselves

Wednesday, May 30

Daddy and mummy are back from hongkong.
There goes freedom and here comes boxes and boxes of wife biscuit.
I'm just so glad that they came back safe and sound.

I have to go back to school for 7 days during June.
6 days of remedial lessons and one day for Chinese oral.
Shit, I haven't touched any of my piled-up homework yet.
And still, I see more homework to come.

Mummy has been really annoying this week.
Sometimes, I find it so hard just to love her.
She made me wait a total of 3 hours for her.
In addition, she only bought clothes for brother and meldon in hongkong,
& absolutely nothing for me at all.
She's so bloody biased towards the males in our family.
I don't even reckon she sees me as her flesh and blood.
Fuck, like what did I do to receive such treatment? Just because I was born a female?

Lastly, to whoever it may concern, please stop asking me to go for emerge.
I am so not interested. And stop asking me whether I miss God or not.
It totally has nothing to do with you all. Whether I choose to love him or not,
the decision lies with me and not anyone else.
Thank you very much.

pssssss ZHANG ZHANG I miss you like shit, come back from cheena land quick!
psssssss I'm one head taller than kristel. EEEEEE relative so short.

Cultural Potpourri

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Saturday, May 26

Just another monotonous wedding

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Thursday, May 24

Secondary 3 camp is coming! :)
I am super excited though I doubt they would really give us hotel rooms like those in the photos. Pictures can be deceiving.
Oh well, I just pray that my ______ would not come during the camp.

Stupid wahtuck is mean but I guess he's right.
My blog only has content when I'm spastic or when I'm feeling weird.
BUT, my blog is a place where I express my wild & insane emotions what!
Therefore, I shall turn a deaf ear to that meanie. And continue blogging this way.
MY BLOG IS NOT BORING OKAY!

So, there was physics SPA today.
I think I'm going to flunk it; I missed out so many points for the graph.
Okay, I AM SO DEAD.

& to the people that is in my head right now, I feel really bad for doing that.
I'm very sorry.

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Friday, May 18

So much to ponder this moment.
Probably it's better off this way.

for life's not always rainbows and butterflies.
I must move on.

I will be blissful, I promise.

Stop brooding. Sleep. Good night

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Tuesday, May 15

( See how lame Jesse is?)

{ Heshuang's blog brings so much memories.

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The day I gave away my first kiss was 26 October 2005. And it was to yueli.
But I've kicked the habit of kissing girls already.
I'm telling you, I'm straight okay!

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Gosh, I used to call heshuang kukushuang.
& I was very close to haoting and heshuang then. They frequent my house like 2-3 times a month.
However, that was in secondary one. When we were still young and naive.

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I was such a passionate christian in the past.
I even invited SPASTIC INSANERS to church before.
Oh, but only heshuang haoting and sk went.

Like OMG OMG OMG! I didn't really remember until reading the posts.
Such memories cannot/must never be erased.

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(yay) I passed biology, physics and English. Like expected, I failed amath.
I got 50 for physics. I am so lucky; OKOK God's blessing.
Miss ma said I could have done better for english.
Oh right, I forgot to meet her for i-dont-know-what reason.

& Shanjun's my lucky star. For his hand. HEHE

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Monday, May 14

Thank goodness obtaining results are not so much of a torment compared to going through the examinations. At least the mind torture only lasts for a few minutes whereby the burden carried is whether I passed/failed. So, today, three subjects have been secured; I passed them all. Kudos to social studies only! 6 more subjects to go (including the killer amath and physics which I'm bound to fail), I've got to stop worrying. My mind continues "Because God will make a way." Gosh, I feel so holy today.

I need to grasp the knack of studying hard & playing hard. "Never do last minute revision and only think of playing after examinations" (oh please, I never practise what I preach)

After much ponder, I've come to realise, actually, my family means the world to me.
Without them, I think I'll never be who I am today.
No doubt, I still heart my girls, my friends and of course, GOD, because they complete my world.
\correction, loving God does not make me a christian.

Also, I find it surreal how friends turn into strangers just overnight.
I miss her him them, maybe?

Ha, I reckon that I think too much. Maybe my brain cells are still working from MYEs.
Oh well, on a higher note, everyone should eat mangoes :D

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Saturday, May 12

I feel myself struggling to breathe,
Yet I'm still clinging on ever so tight.
Reality indeed is ugly;
I'm tied down by false promises which gets me deliberating over everything.
I don't know which way to go.
I feel like a total dork.
~~Someone arrange suicide for me, please?~~

Perk up, perk up, perk up.

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Friday, May 11

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in.

It's all over me.

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Thursday, May 10

YIPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I've been awaiting for this day to come.
And finally, I can announce that MYEs are o-f-f-i-c-i-a-l-l-y OVER.
Books can now be thrown to one side and be replaced by teevee, computers or
anything that pleases you. MAN MAN MAN I've studied hard, so I'll also play realllllllllyyyyyy hard.

To begin with, I will only fail 3 subjects, ~~hopefully~~.
(Only seems so distant but not only seems so possible.)
& thank god I passed my emath. At least I feel ensured by one pathetic subject.
Maybe I'll start praying for many miracles to happen so that
I will not fail terribly for the other 8 subjects but at least get borderline passes.

For the past two weeks, I missed blogging and teevee so much *stretches hands as long as I can.
There were so many things I couldn't do during the past two weeks except studying.
I call 9 of May, the day of liberty (when I am set free from the meditating of books).

Anyway, I've got to thank huiqin for 'hiding' my lappy inside the locker so that
I wouldn't get distracted from studying at home. I've also got to thank her for being such a
great [with open inverted commas] amath teacher who smiles/laughs at herself when she does amath questions.

So much for the many paragraphs about MYEs. I have so many other stuff to say:
{ Germaine, get well soon and don't spread your disease to me. Kidding.
{ Two persons said I was 'gong' in the short span of a day. Or should I say 12 hours?
{ Sk doesn't know how to cook maggi mee. How dumb can this rat get?
{ Jesse draws childish drawings. I think she's getting cuter and cuter.
{ I think that I'm so Shuqun-minded now. Thanks to sk's influence.
{ I have many fake friends; fake in a way because they constantly say " Confirm fail lah" before exams but get flying-coloured passes.
{ Shanjun smsed me today. It came as a huge shock. HAHA
{ Darren Tay looks damn 'hot' in his npcc uniform
{ If Darren and Jesse were to get married, their child/children will have big nostrils, big eyes and curly hair. FREAK
{ I had a sudden liking for christian songs during the MYEs.
{ You, I want to read your mind no more.

All of the above points are typed arbitrarily, in random order. I apologise for any inconvenience caused. Thank you. And for the sake of sleep, goodnight sweetie piesssssss.

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