Emotions that transcend all that we've known of ourselves

Thursday, November 30

(mascara makes my eyes itchy)

tomorrow's december!
and christmas is coming soon. ♥

7:28 PM

Tuesday, November 28

tomorrow will be another hateful day. i absolutely abhor performing on stage. to sing in front of a crowd takes gumption and if i could screen my fear, it wouldn't be a problem to survive this performance. still, i'm mulling over the fact that zach's going tomorrow night. you won't know how vengeful he can be. and a big THANK YOU to jeremy for preventing that crash-look-alike from bringing his camera. i "can't wait" for tomorrow. but i am sure choir's gonna confound the masses.

the week before was a rollarcoaster; going in and out of the downs, emotionly stripped at the slightest event. being the attraction of controversy, life's really taking a toll on me. gladly, there are friends who still care, (sk, cherhan, jeremy) i appreciate the messages.

cruise is on friday. it's just three fucking short days. i bet the days would be sexy as hell with the companyof the brother and cousins. i want to hold a major the foodstarve and get a tan. but i'll miss daddy duper much.

haoting, replyyyyyyyyyyy my testimonials or whatever if you see this.
i miss you hun :[

7:55 PM
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Monday, November 27

happy birthday, huiqin!

4:32 PM
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Friday, November 24

I’m in the process of an emotional breakdown.
My faith’s running low.
Happiness is so near, yet so far.
Prolly it isn’t mine to be found.
Things are now at the weakest, let pain rage all over.
Yet underneath all my upsets, there’s always something still worth living for.
This downfall was just to make me stronger.
Now, bring on the booze and appease me.
these words are of no value, so don’t dig.

-correction, I’m NOT emo.

10:04 PM
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Thursday, November 23

i went out consecutively for 3 days, for a record. i'm into the starbucks affair currently. questioning people can be so amusing sometimes; i can laugh till my six-pacs form. but things were worse for jeremy, his cheeks almost burst. jeremy's absolutely a rich kid (no wonder he's so generous). go look at how he splurges on taxi fares. the feeling of not paying for your lunch/dinner/movie is totally "whoo-la-la", it makes me like a spoilt brat by getting others to pay for me. and megan-look-alike is god-damn cute.

anyway, CHRISTMAS IS COMING! this makes me high. i've been a really good girl this year, i wish santa gives me lots of money. HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

9:33 PM
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Sunday, November 19

the hols are a bore, but at another point of view, it has been a great catch-up with the primary mates. schedule's packed with CHOIR and i seem to be miraculously loving it this time. the korean craze has yet to end, but the love of the hk drama serials has already begun. indulging in food will be the greatest pleasure at this time, yet i'm in fear/worry of gaining pounds. money is depriving me from shopping. maybe i should give it a thought about getting a job. i could say, the holidays are such a waste of my hours. books, however, ain't no interest to me.

despite the awesomely smooth-sailing days,

who has ever thought of the highs and lows at the pit of the heart.

it's time to mask my uncertainties and wake up to reality.

i'll back off if you say goodbye.

haotingggggggggggggggg.

i miss you, bitch. i demand you to come back nowwwww!

& not to forget, happy birthday grandma!

12:10 PM
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Sunday, November 12

truth or dare was the highlight.

11:05 PM
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Friday, November 10

chalet is now history, yet most of the class-mates are still in the chalet mood. huiqin's right, who doesn't miss chalet? the past two years with twoeleven have been so fab. adapting to the new class next year will definitely be hard, but that's just how life goes. i'll miss the three loves so.

class chalet was rocking great. i absolutely love the video, credits to vincent. bbq was awesome as well; the chicken wings, starting and fanning of fire, marshmallows and prawns. when there's food, there's haoting. HAHAHAHA there was also the night trail which scared the hell out of all of us. with strangers we don't even know frightening us, it was crazy! and the screening of shuttle and the 40-year-old virgin was real funny, though TSS, CKK and i weren't watching. and thanks to eugene for the maggi. watching of the "sun-rise" felt weird, but cam-whoring was the thing at the beach. i had this breakthrough of staying awake for more than 24 hours.

and i just found out that the ransacking of the bags wasn't the doing of the guys. this is freaking me.

10:04 PM
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Friday, November 3

happy birthday to me :))))

celebration and play-time of my 14th was today. the arrival of the girls came as a huge shock, but the surprise was much appreciated. the hair-"styling", the cooking of maggi, the cake&pizza, the non-stop arcade ball machine and all the fun you all have created, have brought me a big wideee smile! my birthday wouldn't be complete without you girls. you babes so rock <3 thanks for everything.

laughing at photos is oh-so nice, especially at xuejun. thanks to the photos, she regrets being my primary school class-mate. xuejun is a total RAT, she's sneaky. and she loves ransacking my house. how dumb can i get to only think that my house has only one fork?! my house is super pathetic. and the saying "too many cooks spoil the broth" is absolutely true. HAHAHAHAHA

& also thanks to those that wished me happy birthday. HAHAHA
&& also to the daddy, aunties, uncles, grandma for the angbaos.

tomorrow is full-time shopping with the bitch & dinner with the family.

8:12 PM
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